Life is a journey; the choices you make now will determine your eternal destination.

Thursday, February 11, 2016

My journey, continued: Prayer and trust

A further point to my last post. 
 As I ponder my sins, and the sins of the world, I often am very troubled, especially with the persecution of Christians and the slaughter of innocents in the womb. We are at  a point in the history of the world beyond compare, where safety and a peaceful life are jeopardized at every turn.
I am reminded of the Hank Williams song, "When sleep won't come, the whole night through..." only when I "toss around and call my name" the Name I call upon is the Sacred Heart of Jesus.
Last night, I had a breakthrough in trust.
Certain things were giving me great trouble of mind, and I finally just put it all in His Hands. I also included the Blessed Virgin, as I laid all my woes out and asked them for mercy upon this world.
This is my go to prayer for placing my trust in Jesus:

O Sacred Heart of Jesus,
I place my trust in Thee.
Whatever may befall me Lord,
Though dark the hour may be;
In all my woes, in all my joys,
Though naught but grief I see;
O Sacred Heart of Jesus,
I place my trust in Thee.
When those I love have passed away,
And I am sore distressed,
O Sacred Heart of Jesus,
I fly to Thee for rest.
In all my trials, great and small,
my confidence shall be unshaken as I cry,
Dear Lord, I place my trust in Thee.
This is my one sweet prayer, dear Lord,
My faith, my trust, my love;
But most of all in that last hour
When death points up above,
O sweet Saviour, may Thy face smile
On my soul all free;
Oh may I cry with rapturous love:
I've placed my trust in Thee.

I have said this prayer many times since I found it, and especially at night when I am troubled, and I finally am reaping the benefit of it- I have finally learned to trust, and then let it go.
I  know we are always told to trust in God, that we don't know His plans and that His ways are not our ways- but knowing that and implementing that trust have been a work in progress for me.
Like the woman in the Bible story whose prayers finally wore down the judge, God has finally worn down my resistance and I am finding the peace of actually trusting in Him.

Thursday, February 4, 2016

Night revelations

I believe that during the night we are closest to God, especially when sleep won't come, or when we have dreams that trouble us and awaken us. I read somewhere that sleeping through for 8 hours is a fairly modern concept; that sleep used to be divided between the first and second sleep, (3-4 hours each) with a period of wakefulness in between. For years, my sleep has fallen into that pattern, and it's during that between time that I  have my closest conversations with God and my deepest examination of conscience. God grants us that time of no distractions for us to spend time with Him. So I believe.

Last night I was thinking about how in my youth I had grand passions and longings that I thought I couldn't live without. Now I look back and am thankful that those were unanswered prayers, for they would have led me away from my faith.However circuitous the route, I think I am firmly planted where God wants me on my earthly journey, and I can finally let go of those dreams and desires. For if they take me away from God, I want no part of them.