As we grow older, we tend to look back on the days of our youth.
Some of us long for those days when we were young, strong and healthy to be returned to us.
For the days of my youth were wasted, by attachment to sin. It seems to me that when I was a child, the days were mostly bright and full of promise. Then sin crept in, and even at a young age I was attracted to carnal pleasure, self indulgence, pride, .... it took away the brightness and the light and brought in darkness.
As I age, my journey begins to look like climbing through a fog back towards the light.
I am given the grace of repentance and a firm purpose of amendment. That is what is bringing the light back into my life.
I often think of my guardian angel, and send him a prayer of thanks every day for bringing me back to God. I have a long way to go, and a short time to get there, as the song says. But I have a goal- heaven; and a plan- prayer, repentance, penance, submission to the will of God. One day, the light will be all that I see.
Here is a prayer from the Raccolta:
My Lord Jesus Christ, Son of the living God, I humbly beseech The to scatter the darkness of my mind, and to give me lively faith, firm hope and burning love. Grant, O my God, that I may know Thee well and may do all things in Thy light and in conformity to Thy holy will. Amen.