Sometimes, I can't sleep at night, and I use the time to examine my conscience. Last night, as I was pondering things, thinking about all the people who turn away from God for whatever reason, people I know or have known, it made me sad to think that when they turn away from their Creator they open the door to deception. Only God can create a beautiful and perfect soul, made in his own image; the devil cannot create, only corrupt souls. All we do in our lives speaks to the choice between good and evil. Trouble is, most people, myself included, don't always recognize evil in the little things we do. Sure, it's easy to see, like when we see a news feed of people being beheaded or crucified over in the middle east, or watch news stories of murder and mayhem and political corruption- but what about the little things in our own lives?
Many saints have said that before we go to sleep, we should examine our conscience, think about all we said and did during the day. When we awake in the morning, before we even get out of bed, offer ourselves and our thoughts, words and actions up to God.
Oh how easy it is to forget Him during the day, to get caught up in our own supposed importance, our vanities and our pride, or our seemingly justified anger and criticism. And oh yes, that is a tool of the devil. That somehow, WE become important in our own eyes; what WE want is the predominant principle in our decisions. Oh how the devil loves pride! How he deceives us into believing that WE are worthy of praise and respect, and that it is what we should strive for!
Of course, the antidote is humility. We have so many examples among the saints who understood this; but in our daily lives, how many people can we find that we consider truly humble? Can we consider ourselves to be humble, or vain and proud? I think I'm a work in progress, like most people who truly love God.
Thank God for the sacrament of Confession.